|"They're just afraid to change.."
||[Oct. 29th, 2009|03:06 pm]
You would think that someone trying to sabotage a close friendship of mine would make me angry. It's the normal response, isn't it? Or that it would make me disappointed in the person who I had tried to help, who wanted to be friends... but no, i'm really not angry at all. i'm not sad, i'm not disappointed, i'm not mad, i'm not really anything really.
i'm pretty apathetic towards this person. they have played their games so much that it's not even surprising to me anymore. what i do find surprising is how sincere they manage to make themselves sound and that i still fall for it, because i don't expect people to lie and manipulate. i find it so pointless that it escapes me to consider someone, with a proven history of it, would try the same thing.
naive, yes, I am apparently so in abundance.
my friend and I are still good friends despite the attempts of his kinda-ex-but-not to sabotage our friendship because she's jealous of me. she's been jealous of me for years, jealous of my strength, resentful because people like me so much, and now she's jealous of how much her man and i get along, and has even given him the impression that she thinks we're in love - and she knows i'm married and knows how into women I am.
Let me state again - she KNOWS this.
She lied to him about me and lied to me about him...
Why try to sabotage a friendship?
More importantly, why lie to the person who you apparently want to be with? Why do that to him? Why try to take away one of his good friends? Why do that to someone you claim to love?
Why don't people change?
Why don't SOME people change, actually.
I've changed a lot. I'm far more mellow than anyone thought I ever would be and I am very proud to have changed - for the better.
I wasn't a bad girl before, but I did have some very abrasive points that a lovely, beautiful woman has helped me smooth over.
What my lady has taught me is that if you really truly do care for someone enough, you'll work on those rough edges so you can make them as happy as possible.
I am glad that specifically you two people are people of honour and integrity. No one is perfect, but you have qualities that are admirable in humans, qualities that make me love you and make me appreciate you even more in times like these.
I hope nothing comes between my friendship with this guy. We love each other dearly. I just don't trust what bullshit she might pull out to separate us to satisfy her petty jealousy.
My poor buddy. It's far worse for him than it is me.
Peace out, people.